it didnt make sense bc they already told people publicly but idk i like them and i dont want them to be upset so it was an easy fix (thanks) to just un-say it
usually pretty good but the more i think about it huh idk
Trench is stressful. They could come enjoy media in a room by themselves. No one to annoy them.
'Oh no you're stuck on a planet with no more supplies or technology coming' is a literal horror trope in our media. Also horror stories with colonies. (Don't be a colonist) The tech is great. The Corporations are terrible. Most people are stuck as miners. Non-corporate entities are less awful. Pretty naive.
Alien remnants suck. Like even the Corporations agree on that. Think Corruption bad except then you just die and don't come back. IDK it's hard to summarize a whole universe.
we do have stuff that keeps coming its just the monsters are steadier than supplies tho we do get a lot of supplies too if we want em but i guess it depends what ur used to
does that ever happen to u for real no supplies and stuck?? is that what happens to colonists there and yeah a lot of big things are run by terrible ppl or things that seems to be the same in a lot of worlds/realms/places
my familys from mines too lots of undercity people were miners
sounds like there are a few things in common
i can see how that would be hard everyones got a different take too if youve got different ppl to ask
Trench is more self-sufficient than early stage colonies in the Corporation Rim. If colonies go well, they get regular supplies, handle whatever the planet needs, and thrives. Big pay offs when it goes well.
There's more ways it can go poorly than is worth listing. Whether it's a corporate takeover and the data is hidden/lost or a company going bankrupt or anything else... Colonies get stranded. It happens all the time.
The non-corporate political entity I lived in when I came here was founded by abandoned colonists. A ship came, and the captain made a great speech about leaving no one behind. They traveled a long way and eventually built Preservation. I have > 20 serials, plays, etc about the founding of Preservation if you're interested. They got a good ending. Most abandoned colonies don't.
Whatever universe you're in, there's valuable resources to mine.
Yeah, I died.
I miss a lot about it. Not everything, but it's hard to be here when everyone I know more than a couple months is back there.
Most horrific part is most of the horror stories aren't even known because that's how they become horror stories.
I recorded as many offerings at a festival I went to with drones because offerings were offered at the same time.
I started the feed before... the incident where we met. It's part of it. [ ... dances around the screen ] Media's always helped me. It's easier than people.
I don't know what to say. I don't know what I want. I'd only figured that out, finally, before I came here. I want to be with the people I miss. I don't want them to have to be here. I want more of my tech. I want less blood. I'm tired of my blood downloading dictating the terms of my body and my mind. There's people here who need me.
thats a horrible thing to think about but youre very right tons of terrible shit happened in the undercity and i prob only know not even close to half less
that was an incident ?? or is incident just a comfortable word
this place sure likes throwing wrenches in things if it isnt saving people its taking them from where they wanted to be which dick move trench there should be an opt out
ouch yeah thats a hell of a problem people you miss but why would you wish here on them right? less blood would be probably the best thing that could happen here but i dont see any way for that to ever happen its like the problem was just built right into the bones of this city
sing it ME TOO 3 months out of 4? total shit and im supposed to be grateful for the 1 month where it helps i mean i AM but what a rip it makes being there for those ppl extra hard
yeah i guess it is and it doesnt have to be bad but sometimes it hurts
That's what the horror genre is for. Imagination in place of knowledge.
The socially aggressive acquisition of media was under the influence of some... curse people have called it. I think. That wasn't much like me. I don't like going up to new people unless I have to.
How long would any Sleepers stay if they could instantly go home? Fewer than would stay now, having been here. Trench isn't an easy sell to most people.
I haven't had a good month yet. Nor do I see the benefit of this blood. Blood's the only way most problems here get solved. If we had technology, we wouldn't need to use blood.
Being there for people sounds simple and easy. Isn't simple or easy. Sometimes things just suck.
my sister picks those apart when we watch the horror ones like all the stupid stuff and the "wrong" stuff
theyre not keeping her awake much tho so i think i need to find more movies with explosions
huh really i never would have guessed u seemed pretty normal to me but u did seem nervous
im biased id stay indefinitely i know its not an easy sell but its better than what id go back to prob
see thats just unfair prob wont work but ill put in a complaint at the ocean i found a few benefits to my blood which considering i spun the wheel and got "poison" kinda surprised
but ur right and tech prob wouldnt cause beasts and corruption and everything else pollution
nope its not easy but thats ok it doesnt always have to but it sucks a lot of the time
u say u havent had a good month yet is it ur blood or something else u get nightmares? not the horse the sleep kind
If she enjoys doing that, there's nothing wrong with it. If it's because she's not having fun, then yes, there are plenty of movies with explosions.
Our first interaction may have given you the wrong impression of me. It was extremely out of character.
Since the ocean is an alien (ugh) I doubt she'll care. This whole planet, as far as we can go, is one large contaminated alien remnant spot. Except it isn't even remnants. Actual aliens.
I'm glad you like being here. I don't have to feel bad about that.
It's not nightmares. It's memories. I wouldn't normally admit that, but it was a blood thing last month. It's just something that happens here. I've been losing them and gaining them and losing them. I got sucked into one of my own memories with someone last month, except I don't remember the memory. I knew it had happened, but I couldn't remember it. I still don't remember it. I remember the memory book of it.
its hard to tell if shes having fun sometimes but the more explosions the more i might be able to guarantee the fun until she tells me those are wrong too
oh well if it helps my impression remains intact cool person likes media a lot is nervous sometimes
is this THESE NERVES I HAVE is this how u feel a lot do u get the indecision the constant worry about everything its exhausting
u r the second person to mention aliens i was told that dragons on some worlds are also aliens
memories is worse by 100% "just something that happens here" is sometimes a code for shitty srsly i wish we could lodge a complaint thats that also sounds exhausting wow i hope it fucks off returns all the memories except the ones u might actually not want for real and dials itself down to zero for the next month just nothing no bad blood only good is that too much to ask
Indecision. Check. Worry. Check. (Modifier: Constant. Check.) Exhaustion. Check. I'm far from the only one like that naturally.
I am, as some people put it, "from scifi." Humans are not the sole sentient species in the universe. "Oooooooooooh." I'm more 'what the fuck' over dragons being real than dragons as aliens.
Sharing memories is awkward af, but we talked about a lot more serious shit because of it. I can understand (if hate) that. Taking them away? What does that accomplish? Even if someone no longer remembers a traumatic experience, they still suffer consequences because of it. They lack context to understand why.
yeah. ur telling me. i can kinda see the appeal if its fireworks or even an abandoned building but idk i dont get the same thrill she does not mad about it
but! i do know a guy thats real good at exploding stuff we fight sometimes he kicks my ass but its cool
how would u describe urself if you had to (u dont have to im just curious)
scifi. like the category in the media none of it sounds all that weird really we got all kinds that live in zaun piltover too lots that arent "human" havent seen a dragon ther yet tho BUT ive seen one here
sometimes talking about the serious shit helps but id prefer to do it with both parties willing and no unwanted sharing yeah ur right. i guess taking away the context just would make more of a mess
dont hold ur breath unless you get dumped into my memory again cause: the undercity
about that worry: constant. check the indecision too ig ive got something for you was waiting on it to be finished and now it is so ill drop it off might help with the nerves
hahahahahaha they hate each other but thats not always a bad start hes an asshole talks like an Asshole but hes not an ASSHOLE
(if he heard that hed argue that i was an asshole for saying this and he IS THE BIGGEST ASSHOLE only hed add insults to the mix)
thats fair ppl come up with their own ideas about who other ppl are sometimes its a swing and a miss sometimes not
all kinds of ig human animal combos or more animal than "human" or all made of metal and gears they still walk and talk and go about their business guess would prob fit with a little of both maybe more fantasy but def some scifi
i havent played that game but ive played the one where u take care of a sister and 2 other dumbasses and 1 smol bro whos more smartass than dumb
shit i got used to: bread so hard it dents walls no bread broken bones daily beatings three walls and bars four walls and no bars
just bc u can get used to it doesnt mean u should have to and its no prob ur 'CREW' so ill make the drop ill tell u when its done and u dont even have to make a face
[vi will send fang with a small box. inside is a tiny little pillow (about 3x3), one side's a pattern of leaves and the other's embroidered with what looks to be a little cassette tape. inspection will reveal it contains two vile bloodstones, harvested when the blood is emanating chill vibes. they don't seem to work on vi herself, but they've had some effect on other people. once fang returns, which is instant, vi hits send.]
poof. its magic. its outside the feed. its a box. however did it get there :)
I feel the need to do a background check on Mr. Asshole Explosions. Could I have more readily identifiable information? Name? DeerNet handle? Business?
People always have ideas about who other people are, anyone they've ever met or heard of. That's how it goes. IDK if anyone really gets it 100% right.
You have lost me on the animal-human constructs and the ??? bots ??? Those are here?
Taking care of people is hard. They never make it easy. Point was, the Pthumerians are playing take care of people, but we're not like them. So it's hard.
Why must everything be ass? You ever think about that?
Only one of those is useful and not for eating. I get your point. We're all wired certain ways. Anxiety is a natural thing for me, so I don't expect it to ever disappear. Not fully. I don't know that I'd recognize myself.
[ Murderbot isn't entirely sure what to do with a tiny pillow, but it gives Fang a nod and... tucks it into an inner pocket. ]
Thank you, Vi. You're good crew.
[ It's glad Vi cannot see the face it made writing that. ]
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What happened?
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feel a lot better now that theyre not upset about it
unless theyre still upset about it
and havent told me
ill apologize again
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How good are you at telling whether people are upset with you?
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usually pretty good
but the more i think about it
huh
idk
are u upset with me
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I'm not upset with you. Trench is different than where I'm from. I expect and reach for things that aren't here.
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and they usually make sense
lot on their plate
probably stressed
ok good! :)
whats it like where ur from
besides probably no squid beach
omens
random curses
i left out omni bc ur too good with tech
no not have tech
its like me with punching stuff
only that sounded better in my head
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They could come enjoy media in a room by themselves. No one to annoy them.
'Oh no you're stuck on a planet with no more supplies or technology coming' is a literal horror trope in our media.
Also horror stories with colonies. (Don't be a colonist)
The tech is great. The Corporations are terrible.
Most people are stuck as miners.
Non-corporate entities are less awful. Pretty naive.
Alien remnants suck. Like even the Corporations agree on that.
Think Corruption bad except then you just die and don't come back.
IDK it's hard to summarize a whole universe.
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she does like media
sometimes we watch shows
or listen to stuff
we do have stuff that keeps coming
its just the monsters are steadier than supplies
tho we do get a lot of supplies too if we want em
but i guess it depends what ur used to
does that ever happen to u for real
no supplies and stuck??
is that what happens to colonists there
and yeah a lot of big things are run by terrible ppl or things
that seems to be the same in a lot of worlds/realms/places
my familys from mines too
lots of undercity people were miners
sounds like there are a few things in common
i can see how that would be hard
everyones got a different take too
if youve got different ppl to ask
at least here u come back from dying
usually
u miss it a lot?
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If colonies go well, they get regular supplies, handle whatever the planet needs, and thrives.
Big pay offs when it goes well.
There's more ways it can go poorly than is worth listing.
Whether it's a corporate takeover and the data is hidden/lost or a company going bankrupt or anything else...
Colonies get stranded. It happens all the time.
The non-corporate political entity I lived in when I came here was founded by abandoned colonists. A ship came, and the captain made a great speech about leaving no one behind. They traveled a long way and eventually built Preservation.
I have > 20 serials, plays, etc about the founding of Preservation if you're interested.
They got a good ending.
Most abandoned colonies don't.
Whatever universe you're in, there's valuable resources to mine.
Yeah, I died.
I miss a lot about it. Not everything, but it's hard to be here when everyone I know more than a couple months is back there.
Do you miss home?
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preservations a good name
a hopeful strong sounding one
a whole lot of bad endings to go around
yeah im down to watch some
dont think ive ever seen a play before
i didnt even think about looking that up
that would make it hard to be anywhere
is that why you started the feed besides "all the media"?
fuck. i dont even know what to say when ppl say that anymore
just: sorry
doesnt feel like it cuts it
i do sometimes
mostly i miss stuff in the past
or stuff i missed
people too yeah i do miss people
another of mine showed up so i guess im lucky there
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I recorded as many offerings at a festival I went to with drones because offerings were offered at the same time.
I started the feed before... the incident where we met.
It's part of it.
[ ... dances around the screen ]
Media's always helped me.It's easier than people.
I don't know what to say. I don't know what I want. I'd only figured that out, finally, before I came here.
I want to be with the people I miss. I don't want them to have to be here.
I want more of my tech. I want less blood.
I'm tired of my blood
downloadingdictating the terms of my body and my mind.There's people here who need me.
At the end of the day, I guess that's it.
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youre very right
tons of terrible shit happened in the undercity
and i prob only know not even close to half
less
that was an incident
??
or is incident just a comfortable word
this place sure likes throwing wrenches in things
if it isnt saving people
its taking them from where they wanted to be
which
dick move trench there should be an opt out
ouch yeah thats a hell of a problem
people you miss but why would you wish here on them right?
less blood would be probably the best thing that could happen here
but i dont see any way for that to ever happen
its like the problem was just built right into the bones of this city
sing it
ME TOO
3 months out of 4? total shit
and im supposed to be grateful for the 1 month where it helps
i mean i AM but what a rip
it makes being there for those ppl extra hard
yeah i guess it is
and it doesnt have to be bad
but sometimes it hurts
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The socially aggressive acquisition of media was under the influence of some... curse people have called it.
I think.
That wasn't much like me. I don't like going up to new people unless I have to.
How long would any Sleepers stay if they could instantly go home?
Fewer than would stay now, having been here.
Trench isn't an easy sell to most people.
I haven't had a good month yet.
Nor do I see the benefit of this blood.
Blood's the only way most problems here get solved.
If we had technology, we wouldn't need to use blood.
Being there for people sounds simple and easy. Isn't simple or easy.
Sometimes things just suck.
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the horror ones
like all the stupid stuff and the "wrong" stuff
theyre not keeping her awake much tho
so i think i need to find more movies with explosions
huh really
i never would have guessed
u seemed pretty normal to me
but u did seem nervous
im biased
id stay indefinitely
i know its not an easy sell
but its better than what id go back to prob
see thats just unfair
prob wont work but ill put in a complaint at the ocean
i found a few benefits to my blood
which considering i spun the wheel and got "poison"
kinda surprised
but ur right
and tech prob wouldnt cause beasts and corruption and
everything else
pollution
nope its not easy but thats ok
it doesnt always have to but it sucks a lot of the time
u say u havent had a good month yet
is it ur blood or something else
u get nightmares?
not the horse the sleep kind
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If it's because she's not having fun, then yes, there are plenty of movies with explosions.
Our first interaction may have given you the wrong impression of me.
It was extremely out of character.
Since the ocean is an alien (ugh) I doubt she'll care.
This whole planet, as far as we can go, is one large contaminated alien remnant spot. Except it isn't even remnants. Actual aliens.
I'm glad you like being here. I don't have to feel bad about that.
It's not nightmares. It's memories.
I wouldn't normally admit that, but it was a blood thing last month. It's just something that happens here.
I've been losing them and gaining them and losing them.
I got sucked into one of my own memories with someone last month, except I don't remember the memory. I knew it had happened, but I couldn't remember it. I still don't remember it. I remember the memory book of it.
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but the more explosions the more i might be able to guarantee the fun
until she tells me those are wrong too
oh well if it helps my impression remains intact
cool person likes media a lot
is nervous sometimes
is this THESE NERVES I HAVE
is this how u feel a lot
do u get the indecision the constant worry about everything
its exhausting
u r the second person to mention aliens
i was told that dragons on some worlds are also aliens
memories is worse by 100%
"just something that happens here" is sometimes a code for shitty
srsly i wish we could lodge a complaint
thats
that also sounds exhausting wow
i hope it fucks off returns all the memories
except the ones u might actually not want for real
and dials itself down to zero for the next month
just nothing
no bad blood
only good is that too much to ask
probably yyy but come on trench i will fight u
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That fits. I guess.
Indecision. Check.
Worry. Check. (Modifier: Constant. Check.)
Exhaustion. Check.
I'm far from the only one like that naturally.
I am, as some people put it, "from scifi."
Humans are not the sole sentient species in the universe.
"Oooooooooooh."
I'm more 'what the fuck' over dragons being real than dragons as aliens.
Sharing memories is awkward af, but we talked about a lot more serious shit because of it. I can understand (if hate) that.
Taking them away? What does that accomplish?
Even if someone no longer remembers a traumatic experience, they still suffer consequences because of it. They lack context to understand why.
I'm not holding my breath.
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i dont get the same thrill she does
not mad about it
but! i do know a guy thats real good at exploding stuff
we fight sometimes
he kicks my ass but its cool
how would u describe urself if you had to
(u dont have to im just curious)
scifi. like the category in the media
none of it sounds all that weird really
we got all kinds that live in zaun
piltover too
lots that arent "human"
havent seen a dragon ther yet tho
BUT ive seen one here
sometimes talking about the serious shit helps
but id prefer to do it with both parties willing and no unwanted sharing
yeah ur right. i guess taking away the context just would make more of a mess
dont hold ur breath
unless you get dumped into my memory again
cause: the undercity
about that worry: constant. check
the indecision too ig
ive got something for you
was waiting on it to be finished and now it is so
ill drop it off
might help with the nerves
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Somewhere in Trench someone doesn't understand why I put this much attention into media.
Have you introduced Mr. Explosions to Jinx?
I don't know. Where I'm from you can put all kinds of information into your feed identity. I've kept mine to default name + gender.
What do you mean about having lots of (non-dragon)... beings?
('scifi' or 'fantasy'?)
Somehow that didn't come up until now.
Have you ever played a game where you take care of a little creature?
Sometimes it feels like that's what they're doing, only they're bad at it.
Is it blood? I bet it's blood.Oh, you didn't need—
Thank you. I appreciate it.
It's... IDK, you get used to it.
1/2
their loss ur gain
hahahahahaha
they hate each other
but thats not always a bad start
hes an asshole
talks like an Asshole
but hes not an ASSHOLE
(if he heard that hed argue that i was an asshole for saying this and he IS THE BIGGEST ASSHOLE only hed add insults to the mix)
thats fair
ppl come up with their own ideas about who other ppl are
sometimes its a swing and a miss
sometimes not
all kinds of ig human animal combos
or more animal than "human"
or all made of metal and gears
they still walk and talk and go about their business
guess would prob fit with a little of both
maybe more fantasy but def some scifi
i havent played that game
but ive played the one where u take care of a sister and 2 other dumbasses
and 1 smol bro whos more smartass than dumb
shit i got used to:
bread so hard it dents walls
no bread
broken bones
daily beatings
three walls and bars
four walls and no bars
just bc u can get used to it doesnt mean u should have to
and its no prob
ur 'CREW' so ill make the drop
ill tell u when its done
and u dont even have to make a face
2/2
poof. its magic. its outside the feed.
its a box.
however did it get there :)
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People always have ideas about who other people are, anyone they've ever met or heard of. That's how it goes.
IDK if anyone really gets it 100% right.
You have lost me on the animal-human constructs and the ??? bots ???
Those are here?
Taking care of people is hard. They never make it easy.
Point was, the Pthumerians are playing take care of people, but we're not like them. So it's hard.
Why must everything be ass? You ever think about that?
Only one of those is useful and not for eating.
I get your point.
We're all wired certain ways.
Anxiety is a natural thing for me, so I don't expect it to ever disappear. Not fully.
I don't know that I'd recognize myself.
[ Murderbot isn't entirely sure what to do with a tiny pillow, but it gives Fang a nod and... tucks it into an inner pocket. ]
Thank you, Vi.
You're good crew.
[ It's glad Vi cannot see the face it made writing that. ]